Writing about him even though he's gonna read it (bloggie # 5)

"The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of." - Blaise Pascal
mood: relaxed
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okie sooo, writing bout this moment me and "ryan" had. =] this was wednesday night
*flash back*

so it's me, him, and one of our friends. and we're at church and we're going out this back exit in this longish dark hallway. The only light coming in is from the two doors, one on each end of the hallway. so our friend walks out one of the doors and goes outside. so its jsut me and him in the hallway. and he goes "wait up i gotta put my jacket on" so he pulls his jacket on and looks at me and he goes "lets just stay here for a little while". my heart starts going a thousand miles an hour and i'm like "ok!"lol. so i'm looking out the door and he comes up behind me and hugs me. so i'm looking out the little window thingy in the door and hes like swaying me back and forth and we're trying to spot my mom's car. and after a little he lets go and stands in the corner. so i look over and hes smiling and i swear it was perfect, the way the light was hitting him from the window im like "dammnn this kid is gorgeous" in my head. he looked amazing. i keep thinknig bout the way he looked there. but anzways so i go over to him and he wraps his arms around me and i rest my head back on his chest. and we're just like this for a little. so he leans over and kisses my neck and my heart like jumps through my chest. right then i'm like so friggin happy lol. i'm freaking out in a good way and my heart's skipping beats. i wanted to stay like that forever. it was perfect, totally perfect.

it was the best, damn i am so lucky to have him. =]


all for todayy


-this_blue_october